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Leaving a memory.
Dec. 30th, 2009 | 12:19 am
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Blissful like this
Dec. 8th, 2009 | 10:37 pm
Your perfect Sunday morning gift
"Oh this is such a perfect Sunday morning gift cos it's so nice and cute but FUCK.... I GOT CHEATED!! KENA OWNED~", quoted from Kai. That dumbass insisted on using his dollar coin on that old school vending machine for the tamagotchi he thought he could get. But the expression on his face when he opened up the capsule and only to find this is, simply, cute, to, the, max.
So today, I was a private nurse cos my dumbass is really sick and it seriously pains me. And when I asked: "Do you need anything? Water? Tissue? Or anything else?", he replied immediately: "No, I only need you", then hugged me like a little child. I swear that at that moment, the whole world stops, my heart melted, seriously.
It feels so good to be in love and the fact that out of 10 of my livejournal friends, 7 are silly in love like me too, makes this feeling even better! Cos it's really really sweet to read and smile at those little everyday love stories at the end of the day... (:
Alright, just a quick update! Night!
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This time round, I'm truly in love.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 | 10:22 pm
1st December '09
That's us in some pretty 'rainforest' under the flyer after a satisfying dinner at O'Learys Sportsbar & Grill on our sixth monthsary. Oh, how time flies...
I can still remember six months ago, I was questioning myself really hard whether I'm still able to trust a 22 year-old man with my fragile heart again or whether I'm really ready for a long-term relationship with a man. I can still remember those many negative comments that filled my ears and the awful parental objection that went on for months. I can still remember those tears every night when there was no peace at all with parents during dinner. I can still remember how difficult it was for me to juggle my studies and love at the same time.
This love has gone through many tests and it has proved many people wrong, including myself. I never thought that I could have a blissful relationship which will be able to cross three months cos none of my love ever did, no matter how much effort I've put in. I never thought a relationship could still be in a 'honeymoon' mode even after a month and what's more, six months later. I never thought I could find a man who's able to love me as much as I do, always here for me to hold my hand tight and cross over every obstacles with me.
The thought of little actions like coming all the way from the Airport to my house after knocking off at 9pm just to earn a hug from me, sending me home punctually at 10pm each time we're out hoping to gain my parents' approval, cooking breakfast/brunch/lunch for me while I'm laughing at those dramas or quietly watching him at a tiny corner, learning how to bake yummy pastries during my examinations period to surprise me while I was mugging hard at home, learning new love tunes on the guitar to play and sing 'em for me, scooping huge plushies for me to hug at night and so much more... Really never fails to melt my heart.
Thinking back... Holding on tight while you're going against your parents' wish is definitely never an easy thing to do and I've no idea what made me do it. But for once, I dare to say that I've made the right and the best decision in my life. And I know all these wouldn't happen without fate cos it has played far too much of a role between us but most of all, I thank God for you to play this major role in my life.
If I didn't hold on tight enough and to let go of you back then, probably I'd never know how lucky it feels to be in love with your bestfriend whom you can just sit down with our favourite 'TehPeng' or bubble tea, it just doesn't matter where we are, be it sitting on the swing in a park or in a cafe with the most perfect ambience, as long as we're together to share about our day or sing out loud in the car, showing off the most un-glam side of you cos you know this is the one you're truly in love with, at the end of the day.
Happy six months & one day, baby.
More months and years to come, ilu. (:
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Better than the best
Nov. 16th, 2009 | 01:24 am
mood: 
loved
I was squeezing his hand so tightly but he squeezed mine even tighter to let me know that he's just by my side. He sang 'Back at One' as he stretches his hand just to hold mine, from Woodlands and all the way home. He knows that he can calm my weak fragile heart down with sweet little actions like these.
Such moments are definitely priceless.
This man is definitely more than I can ever ask for.
Life has been real good, heaven has been real kind.
Proper update soon.
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Happy reasons
Nov. 1st, 2009 | 11:16 pm
1) Waking up knowing that the man whom I fell in love with five months ago is still very much in love with me just makes me feel like the happiest and luckiest girl alive.
2) Receiving surprise texts from someone who has been missing in my life for quite some time.
4) Having someone to recognize you just by the sense of smell makes you feel that you're really important to her and of course, the endless hugs after cos it's been too long.
5) The special sweetest one who just made a silly game even sillier than ever by planting heart-shaped roses for me.
Life can't get any better than this.
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So, what's your stand?
Nov. 1st, 2009 | 12:54 am
Apart from pushing the trolley (cos I'm always banging around), asking for my opinions for ingredients which I can't give any (cos I know nuts about cooking), having tears in the eyes while chopping those spicy onions, patiently teaching me how to cook seafood pasta and sharing my dish of cheesy nachos while watching teevee, this man has unknowingly taught me so much about life tonight and that, simply made my night unexpectedly awesome.
If your question is: How awesome?
That shall be kept as a secret for now.
I often wonder, I'm only seventeen, how long am I gonna be with this man? And tonight, I've come to a conclusion that the answer is: Forever. Cos this man is not just a perfect boyfriend for me but such a perfect ______.... I just realized I can't seem to fill that space up cos I simply love the fact that he's my perfect boyfriend.
It's like... In some kinda ways or another, he's always giving me advices and guiding me thru my difficult times. No, he doesn't say a word whenever I pour my heart out to him, he just always listens cos I know he trusts that I'm matured enough t handle on my own. It's just always the random things we talk about that make me learn something new each day. Ahh, it's rather difficult to put all these emotions into words...
But I know, if ever one day (which I hope it'll never come), something has changed and we might not be able to keep this status, I am very sure that he's still definitely one person whom I wanna keep by my side, all my life.... Cos he's definitely worth treasuring, no matter what...
Okay wait, why am I even brooding over all these?
What matters most is I'm happy with the present, isn't it?
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Smile
Oct. 30th, 2009 | 10:35 pm
About a week ago, this sillyhead made my day from the moment she took a bus out to pick me up from the train station, then cooked a plate of yummy creamy sphaghetti cos I demanded her to step into a kitchen for me, then having her t laze around with me and t bear w all my non-stop ramblings about life and then acted like some gossipgirls by checking people out on facebook!
Despite meeting for only barely 5 times or talking on the phone for less than 3 times the whole year round, we're still the same old pair of Aiai. It's like... I can still talk to her about everything under the sun and then she'll just patiently listen, we still love buying bubble-tea before getting homey, still forever reminiscing the same ol history without getting bored of it at all...
Oh wells, that's what we call a true friendship. Cos deep down inside, even without opening our mouths, we both have this mutual understanding between us that no matter how much we've neglected each other due to our busy hectic lifestyles together with our different groups of social circle, we still have got each other at the end of the day, right Ai?
Just as I was typing this down... She just chatted w me online, telepathy much? Ahh, can't wait to see her again(!!) and I hope the next time we meet, we'll be cycling down to what she calls the "windy area", which is also known as the yishun dam, haha so cute.
On a side note, my tongue, stomach or basically, my whole digestive system is in luck! Last week, I've got Ai to cook for me a yummy creamy sphaghetti for dinner and tomorrow, my boy and I will be heading down to Giant for grocery shopping! Whoo, favourite thing to do! Cos he finally decides to whip up a sumptuous lunch for me again!
Ahh, I really feel more than just lucky to know that my boy actually racks his brains the day before just to think of his menu for his girlfriend, what's more the thought of him stepping into the kitchen, transforming into a chef when all his girlfriend has to do is just to patiently wait and watch him at a little corner of the kitchen...
Life's good, isn't it?
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
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Hold you tight.
Oct. 26th, 2009 | 11:08 pm
Just as I thought life after promos is gonna be sweet and slack... I'm wrong, so wrong. It's really tiring to wake up at almost 5 on a Sunday morning just to prepare for filming for PW but I must say, everything's really working so well now that it definitely makes me feel so accomplished and proud of not only myself but my girls at work as well.
And during all these while, I simply adore how my boy's still & always the best part of my day.
It's like... I love how he knows I need a tight hug without me saying a single word. I love grocery shopping with him on a lazy Sunday afternoon. I love to watch him being so serious yet so silly while reliving his childhood. I love how we are always throwing each other's favourite titbits into the trolley. I love how arrogant we look whenever we score in a hockey match. I love how we hold our hands tight while taking a stroll in the park after our sumptuous dinner.
Most of all, I love how we sit in opposite directions on those swings in the playground, just looking at each other while chit-chatting and laughing away about everything and anything in our lives...
"If not for you, I wouldn't wake up."
"Awww... Honeyyyy..."
-sings: "Oh sugar-sugarrr~"
Ahh Gosh. How silly can this get?
Simple life like this really seems too good to be true.
I've never planned my future with someone else before and for the first time, can I say that I really can't wait to grow up? So we can earn my parents' trust and fly t Maldives together? Cos every now and then, the thought of it just makes me wanna smile.
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Beautiful days ahead.
Oct. 23rd, 2009 | 10:42 pm
Listening to All about you by Mcfly, it has been my favourite song ever since Kai sang it to me when we had a spin along Orchard Road two weeks back. Down the busy street with all the hustle and bustle but I can clearly remember a heart that has never felt so calm before...
It has been long since I've last typed in this space cos I no longer see a point in blogging or perhaps, I was just a tad bit too lazy.
Cos so much had happened for the past short two months... All these while, I've met people from all walks of life and I've come to realize about many things as well, like how fragile relationships can be, how a mistake can erase all the fond memories, how family is the only one who's still here to give you the support you need when everyone has given up on you.
On a bright side, I guess I'm pretty forced to learn how to be independent, to take things in my stride and lastly, to understand that life is what you make out of it. Guess it has come to a point whereby a part of me is growing up, moving on to a next phase of life.
Right now, times like having my god-sister joining me as a fan at Bikram Yoga, shopping at almost every corner of town and chatting with me till the AM at the balcony and also, Hora, to make me feel as though we've known each other for 10 000 years cos I can do/say/rant almost every single little shit when we're alone, this feels really good.
Definitely not forgetting about the man whom I'm so in love with, who never fails to listen to what I've got to say, always making things feel so right again when things go wrong, taking all my nonsense and extreme moodswings, teasing me about my fat ass after feeding me like a pig, putting a smile on my face at all cost, learning how to strum my favourite love tunes and sing while I lie on his shoulder, enjoying all the little pastries he has baked for me, and this endless list goes on...
He makes it so much easier when life gets hard. Thank you, my love. (:
On a side note, it's the Nike Human Race tomorrow and no, I'm not running. Marathons like this have kinda lose its significance to me. Cos there isn't anyone to hold my hand till the finishing line anymore and I'd rather keep the moment of how it is like to have someone sprinting with me for the last 100m while holding my hand to the finishing line in my heart. And this kinda explains why I didn't even want to collect my Great Eastern race pack.
Can't describe how I feel today, damn this monthly issue?
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I love,
Sep. 6th, 2009 | 09:45 am
how you kiss my forehead then my cheek before you asked if i'm okay.
how you meticulously packed my stuffs into my bag.
how you hold my hands even tighter than any other usual times.
how you buy me some bread & lozenges while you told me to rest in the car.
how you reminded me to have my lozenges only two hours later.
how you drive so slowly on the highways so I can rest more comfortably.
how you sing thoughout the whole journey home.
When boyfriend covered the blanket for me, tears came rolling down my cheeks... Yet, I've no idea what are those tears for. Is it because of the physical pain I'm going through? Or is it because I was unknowingly touched by boyfriend's every little actions that simply made me feel so loved? I guess, the answer's obvious, for me at least.
(:
Life hasn't been good, I don't even have the time to eat or rather, meals don't seem like an essential in my life anymore. The phrase: 'too little time' is surfacing in my life, once again. What I'm going through now is almost equivalent to O's or wait, I think I should correct myself 'cos this amount of stress is even worse than what I've gone through for O's, seriously.
On a side note, I sprained my ankle, not only once but twice in a day. Sigh, a result of surviving only on 2.5 hours of sleep. But thank God for the awesome teachers in school who sent me t the sinseh despite being in a rush for some important meetings.
Enough of rants.
I've been missing quite a few people terribly...
If only they knew.
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A man worth keeping
Aug. 28th, 2009 | 11:35 pm
Thanks baby, ilu (:
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Beating as one
Aug. 8th, 2009 | 11:28 pm
mood: loved
I seem pretty out of the world, yes indeed. Quick update!
I've spent this week catching-up with many loved ones, as much as I feel guilty (cause I'm supposed to be studying real hard), I still feel happy about it! (: I think I'm really too cooped up in my own tiny little (busy college) world to the extent that I've gotta know about what's happening in people's life thru people, gosh. Not that I'm inquisitive, it's just that I truly care and concern. Apparently, some almost drove me crazy, ahhh suck. This is life, deal with it.
So apart from getting busy with books and homework (yes, what's new?), I've been quite a sporty sunshine girl! Last Saturday, I had WILLrun which is a fund-raising project by the school which I thought it was pretty meaningful. Apart from doing my part for charity, it was a total challenge for myself. I ran 16k in 1hour 45minutes and I'm really proud of myself. (: Joining for two 10k marathons consecutively, my average timing was 1hour 20 minutes and now I can do 6k in that extra half an hour. It made me realize, how every step counts and what a positive mind can make you believe in the inconceivable. (: Just this week alone, I've played badminton, netball, basketball, volleyball and captain's ball with all different groups of people but definitely, still great company. (:
Quality time with Deannah, Deannah's family (HAHA!), Minpei, Sam, Jamie, Amerie, Elizabeth, Bobby & Kai and meeting new people like Natasha, Kym, Terrance and Mayrond (who isn't so new, afterall) was good, all good, makes me a happy girl. (:
Okay, seems like there's really too much fun! Time for some balance? Gonna spend my holidays mugging my ass off! How nice, yeah indeed... Goodnight all! (:
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Coincidence or fate?
Jul. 28th, 2009 | 09:40 pm
Cause it's really too small to be true. Oh wells!
Every thing happens for a reason, isn't it? (:
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Impromptu.
Jul. 24th, 2009 | 10:32 pm
I quickly gave her a call as soon as I read the text cos I know I can never give this date a miss! But then again, I've realized it's always a failure whenever I plan to rush home to sleep in on Friday after enduring a whole chaotic week of school with barely 5 hours of sleep every night! Simply cos there're always impromptu meet-up plans w my lovely ones and I thank God for them. (:
I know I'm a real idiot who seldom take the initiative t call or text and what's more, meeting up... Sometimes, I really do think I'm the most idiotic friend you can ever have but no, that doesn't mean that I've taken ya'll for granted. It's just, me behaving like this plus the huge time-management problem I've got which have never failed t make my life even worse with each passing day! But thank God for people who're always never giving up on me to make things right in my life again, letting me know that I'm always being missed and will never be alone. How heartwarming. (:
These pictures above were taken donkey years ago, lemme recall... 17th December 2007(!!) Gosh, that's almost coming t 2 years? How time flies, but definitely evidence to show how far we've come together. (: And yes! She's my impromptu dinner date for the day! (: I'm putting those pictures up cos we didn't take any today simply cos I'm too ugly for pictures now, really. Simply miss the times whereby I can take hours to dress-up without worrying how much homework that's left uncompleted...
So today, after not meeting for donkey years, apart from we do not camwhore like idiots around town anymore, everything's pretty much the same! We still do the silliest thing in the washroom (sounds wrong, lol), always fighting to tell each other what's on our mind cos we can't wait to get 'em off our chest and reminiscing the past... Oh lastly! We're forever bumping into familiar faces together! Lijie, Bay and XL! Haha oh wells, fated much?
But all I wanna say is, love you toady! It feels so good t see you after so gawd damn long! Remember our deal eh? I don't think I can meet you after 1 month thou but rest assured that I'll be the one dating you as long as I'm available! And this is random but I'm more than just glad to know that this 3 years friendship is still going strong, heehee. Love you toady, once again!
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Life.
Jul. 22nd, 2009 | 11:30 pm
Simultaneous adjustments.
Give and take.
Taken for granted?
Expectations.
Disappointments.
Let loose.
Equilibrium.
Face, deal and live.
Till the end, I've realized that life can be pretty simple.
What about yours?
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Marshmallows for breakfast
Jul. 18th, 2009 | 08:23 pm
Fireworks are dancing outside my window pane, again.
How beautiful. (:
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Hang on there.
Jul. 17th, 2009 | 11:34 pm
My definite part of life (:
Despite having 12 hours of school the day before, rushing out econs essays till 2 in the morning the night before, having only barely 4 hours of sleep to get me thru a hectic routine in school and tough training today, still headed down to town with my oh-so-heavy backpack just so that I can spend some time w the special bunch above! (:
The bunch who have been sticking w me throughout the past few years of my life, the bunch whom I know I can always count on, the bunch whom I've gone through so damn much with, the bunch who still can't wait to hug me so damn tight even after I've warned them about my dirty smelly netball shirt that was soaked in perspiration and the bunch who never fails to take my (cute annoying) nonsense all the time. (:
Awww... It simply feels so good t have em around even if we do stupid things like getting all excited t raise up our hands before we talk in Macs (HAHAHAHA! :D) but I still do think we ought to have more stupid laughing times like this altogether, heehee! Anyways, thanks for making my day today, my precious little lovelies, love ya'll. (:
No words can express how much I miss you a day.
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Take me away.
Jul. 13th, 2009 | 09:05 pm
What do you do when you've got to do something that's against your own wish?
What do you do when you're forced to give up something that's so dearly to you?
What do you do when both your heart and mind refused to listen to any other voice?
What do you do when you can't think of a solution for a win-win situation?
I've never thought that I'd feel the way I'm feeling right now.
So lost, confused and... Indescribable.
My heart's aching, really, badly.
Break me please?
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Time check:
Jul. 10th, 2009 | 09:36 pm
"Leadership must come before management. You must lead yourself into your goals before you start to manage. It's like, you have to lean a ladder against a wall. Otherwise, it'll drop and the wall is the correct direction, the guidance you need. You've to be clear of what you're doing right now. If you just want to try without thinking about the consequences, you may be leading yourself into the wrong direction which results in failure. Sometimes, look at things from different perspectives, don't blame things for the way they are."
Popping more than 20 pills down my throat today has led me into nothing but frustration, thinking of issues that I've been subconsciously running away from whenever I'm in a clear state of mind. But now, there's a wake-up call t face this harsh reality, once again.
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So sincere.
Jul. 7th, 2009 | 02:04 pm
It was almost record-breaking to just sit down, watching the person you love sleeping like a child, for almost seven hours. You complained and whined that you're so gawd damn bored and hungry yet you know there's simply no way you can bring yourself to wake the person up, simply because you love him too much.
"A policeman is only on stand-by for 12 hours. But for my lady, I'm on stand-by 24/7."
That line made everything sweeter than ever. (: